June 7th, 2002

Charah coffee

"Carpe Diem!"

I just saw Dead Poets Society on a movie channel, and damn, now I have 3 favourite movies. It's so inspiring and touching, and I just knew I'd like it. I think Robin Williams is cool. He has made me laugh since I was a kid and I don't know, he's really funny and when he first appeared in the movie, it was just like, that's Robin Williams, man! I know I'm not making sense, but I just like him.

I can't believe THAT is Ethan Hawke though. He was so young and adorable. Naturally, I liked his character best. I'm always drawn to that type. I liked Ethan better when he was younger. Now he's just became another Hollywood stud, and that sucks.

I'm going to seize the moment and do my bloody Physics.

Charah coffee

sludge. so much sludge.

Hmm.

Don't know what to write.

Don't know why I'm bothering.

I just want to do something.

And no. Did not do Physics. Who's surprised?

I need anger management classes. I can't control my temper. It doesn't help either that the pesky brother thinks it's funny to aggravate me. We'll see how funny it is when he ends up six feet under...

I mean, it's like, when he does something to piss me off majorly, I shoot up from my chair like a speeding bullet and charge at him, and I'm a swine-tooth madman. And I don't know, I get these thoughts like I want to hurt the living hell out of him, but I can control myself, but what if I get to the point where I can't?

Sigh. I'm restless. So restless. So bored. So stagnant. I want to suck out all the marrow of life and don't want to discover that I have not lived when I die. Carpe diem, they say, but what if there isn't a moment to seize?

My kid is NOT going to school in Singapore. No matter what. It is NOT going to school in Singapore. I know I'd make a shitty mom, but not to the extent of hating it so much that I'd send it to a Singapore school.

Well. That was a random thought if I ever see one.

Charah coffee

stupid error, dumb entry

I realised while watching "Friends" at 7.30 that I spelled "Ross" as "Russ" a few entries back. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! That is like, the most hil-fucking-larious thing EVER!

I meant to say "Ross", of course.

That's all.