June 18th, 2002

Charah coffee

i see a red door and i want it painted black

Blame it on PMS if you must, but I'm experiencing crazy mood swings that have finally settled me into a light melancholic mood. I can't put my finger on what's bothering me, if anything. I was on some World Cup site just a few seconds ago drooling over Iker Casillas, and that took my mind off things, but it's approaching 6 o'clock and I haven't done a goddamn thing the entire day.

I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know what I'm doing with my school work, my life, with Gen, everything. School starts next Monday and I don't want to go back.

I am not ready.