July 30th, 2007

happy girl

all. or nothing.

You know, I think it always has to be all or nothing for me. What is the point of settling for something in between? You straddle a vague middle ground and find yourself pining for everything which you can no longer have, and you help yourself up by cutting all of it out. You can't have it all, and so you opt for nothing.

It's nothing personal, really. It's only a testament to how wonderful some people are, how much they've impacted my life, and how deeply I once felt. That's all there is to it.

Khai, you get this, don't you? And how sometimes other people still don't remotely come close. How it's all over once it's gone. How it never really comes back. So what is the point? Focus on other things.

I'm quite tired right now.

I really, really miss work.