anotherlongshot (anotherlongshot) wrote,
anotherlongshot
anotherlongshot

Stressed.

I am having a near-insatiable craving for red velvet cake right about now. I've been wanting one since 7pm in the NUS library at Bukit Timah Campus, where I was summoning all my mental strength to get through as much of the Civil Litigation book as I could before throwing in the towel. Alas, I gave up halfway through the chapter on discovery (oops, it's 'disclosure' in England & Wales) and inspection of documents.

To say that I deeply and thoroughly regret signing up for the second part of the QLTS and booking the November/December exam dates would be a massive understatement. If I had known that the Cambridge PhD funding deadline overlaps with the assessment, I would have waited until next June to take the assessment. The stress and time pressure is so bad that I even went on the Kaplan website to see if I can change the test dates; I can, in theory - that is, only if I am willing to fork out 75% of the fees (which is about GBP3,5000). I am not willing to do that, and so I just have to keep on keeping on.

It probably goes without saying that the PhD proposal is a hot mess right now. I have no idea what I'm doing. Juggling two things at the same time is driving me insane and sometimes I feel like a nervous breakdown is just around the corner...which is precisely why I watch the new season of America's Next Top Model every night, to give my poor brain a break.

I can't wait for the test to end. When I'm in London, I'm going to pig out on (including but not limited to) the following:

- my favourite sea salt caramel truffles from Charbonnel et Walker;
- my favourite red velvet cupcakes from Hummingbird Bakery;
- pancakes and the vegetarian breakfast from The Breakfast Club;
- my favourite salad from Birley's (that I ate 3 times a week when I was cramming for my LLM exams);
- scones, scone and more scones; and
- cheese and tomato croissant from Pret a Manger.

Needless to say, Wouter will be dragged along to my pigging out sessions. He's also obliged to watch The Mouse Trap with me and we're gonna go to a nice cocktail bar on the last day of the assessment and I will live my life - at least those few hours - with the illusion that I have no worries, no stress and no obligations in my life, that all I have to do is enjoy tasty cocktails with the sweetest guy in the world.

I can't fucking wait.
Tags: food, london, phd application, qlts, wouter
Subscribe
  • Post a new comment

    Error

    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded 

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.
  • 0 comments