How difficult is to reply to a text message? It takes maybe 10 seconds to send something along the lines of, 'Sorry I was [insert time-consuming activity]. I have [insert impending deadline]. Let's talk [insert proposal to talk at time of mutual convenience].' No matter how busy a person is, he is not busy enough not to have time to do that.
In the first place, he was the one that started this whole thing. He was the one that said 'we should definitely see each other in sg'. He was the one that was apparently all excited about meeting in Europe. He was the one that said, 'I want to see you.'
I should stop believing the cheap words of someone who isn't reliable, the same person who admonished me about the uselessness of words and how I should judge him by his actions. Well, his actions are shit. They are non-existent. He makes vague plans and doesn't follow through on them, not even when the discussion gets interrupted halfway and he says 'talk tomorrow' but he doesn't. It's ironic how he was the one who said that my tongue-in-cheek directive to him to clear his schedule for me back in Singapore 'forces a perspective'; well, guess bloody what? All his meaningless words about wanting to see me and his flirtatious text messages and casual compliments force a perspective too - that whatever happened in Singapore is still alive, that he still wants it, that he still gives a shit. If you're not capable of living up to it, please fuck off and leave me and my fucking retarded pathetic heart alone. To quote The Cardigans: 'Oh my heart can't carry much more; it's really really aching and sore.'
This really isn't worth the time that it took me to write, and neither is it worth the negative emotion that I just expended writing it. I am going to make brunch now and head to work.