More importantly, the relatively warm (relative to Singapore, that is) weather had been messing with my running. I hadn’t felt like running because I don’t like the heat, and because I’ve been having some problems with my skin after I started using the Body Shop’s Drops of Youth range of facial products, I didn’t feel like going out to run under the sun. I didn’t want to put sunblock because it would clog my pores further and presumably irritate my skin even more, and obviously I didn’t want to be running under the sun for 30 minutes without any sunblock. So the sunny weather had not been good for my running.
Today, though, after I was finally done with another freelancing thing, I went out for a run at around 4pm. The rain was slightly heavier than a light drizzle, but not heavy enough to deter me from exploiting what was pretty much perfect running condition, save for the rain. As I hadn’t been running more than 7km max since the 21.1km I did earlier this month, I thought it was high time for a longish run.
Well, I ran only 10km. But I managed to set a new personal record: 52 minutes and 22 seconds. I was, however, shocked to discover that Garmin informed me that my training effect for this run was a measly 1.8 on a scale of 1 to 5; and an 1.8 training effect had only ‘minor benefit’ for my fitness. While I was not completely gassed or anywhere close to that during the run, it wasn’t a walk in the park either as the 1.8 score suggests. In fact, I cannot understand how my maximum heart rate did not go over 156bpm for the entire 10km because I was definitely pushing myself at the last 2km when I was trying to beat my previous PB of 53minutes something. My conclusion is that there is something wrong with my Garmin’s heart rate monitor because this run wasn’t as easy as the stats suggest.
I guess the good news is that I can be even better than this. But the cold weather definitely played huge role in this. I would take having frozen hands and actually be able to breathe over non-frozen hands and feeling like my lungs are about to collapse any time, any day.
In other news, my freelancing work has been…interesting. On second thought, I don’t really want to talk about it. The key thing is that it is taking up a lot of my time; that is, diverting my time from things that I ought to be working on, like publications, my book proposal, all these things. I feel a lot of pressure – from where, I don’t know; probably myself – to pretty much get another, better CV; and I’m not doing anything about it. It’s hard to believe that April is almost over and I still don’t have a second publication, let alone a draft book proposal. I really suck at this life shit. Sometimes I wonder why I did the damn PhD, for it’s not like anyone gives a shit, and sometimes I include myself in that camp.
Needless to say, I have not been writing. Ugh, this is all so annoying.
I’m still slowly but surely reading Bleak House. What I really want to read right now is Barn 8 by Deb Olin Unferth. It’s basically vegan story, written by a vegan writer, so obviously I must read it. Waterstones has just shipped it; the prospect of having it any day now is lighting a fire under me to finish, just finish, Bleak House. Alas, I am only at page 538 of 989…